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Well I pick only one today.
Darling M.


So lets see.... my life right now...
As many of you know, my best friend is moving to another province.
I've known about it for months, but we've been carefully and steadily ignoring it.
"We have 3 months"
"We have 2 months"
"We still have one more month"
We have a matter of weeks or days.

I dont want her to go.
I want her to grow and change and love and be free,
but why can't she do it here?!

In choir class the other day
Captain Awesome was playing a sad song about goodbyes
and Ee and I just stood there.
When the song stopped i crossed to the other side of the piano where she stood and gave her a hug.
Then without warning I burst into tears.
MatKnight and AWeibe thought I was crazy.
I hadn't cryed over it before.
But I'll never have another choir class with her.
Or skip chem and go to the mall with her.
I have one more school day left with her because of the play.
I feel cheated.
I feel selfish, but I feel like this isnt fair to me. I know it isnt fair to her, having her rip up her whole life and just... go.
I want her to stay.

Today she is coming over to chill. Play video games, compare gifts we bought. All that good stuff.

She may not be here for Christmas.