Post #100

Today:
We had a Christmas lunch.

My father, my mother, my sister and me. Add in my sister and my boyfriend's and that equals a house too full and some silly times.

It wasn't as bad as my sis and i had anticipated. Everyone got on really well.

We had our Christmas lunch today because-

Tomorrow:
My sister is hopping a plane and going to BC

to visit our grandmother.

No one else is going, we couldn't get the time off work.
I'll miss her, I'll admit it.
This year I work, so I got her a man made sapphire necklace, with little diamonds around the sapphire, on a silver chain.

It looks gorgeous with her hair and eyes and skin tone, if I do say so myself.

I'll miss my sister.

Awaking up Christmas morning will be weird without A,

complaining about how early the rest of us are up, making tea,

cuddling whatever fuzzy clothing my mother got us

(this year it's socks. Fuzzy toe socks and regular but stripy ones)

Grinning as everyone else opens up their presents

and showing little emotion when she opens hers.

Demanding I make cinnamon buns as it is tradition.

And Complaining about the waste of paper.

Merry Christmas A.

I know you'll love being in Vancouver Island for the holidays.

Recently:

Ee, my wonderful dearest best friend,

whom is so high on the totem pole,

got me a Christmas gift.

It's a beautiful notebook,

and we are going to be sending it back and forth

between Calgary and here.
My present to her was a gold iPod nano, 4g.

Gold for me as a who,

gold for GC,

and gold for dreams.

Mine cost more,

but her gift is better.

I wanted to get her something to remember me by,

and she got something that insured we wouldn't forget.

She says she feels cheap.
I say I feel materialistic and silly.

Question:
If I wanted it,

but not from that person;

If i thought I wanted it

but thenwhen I got it i didnt;

if i wanted to stop but...

is it my fault?

or the other persons?

or both?
Am I stupid for thinking that I could have changed what was already in the process? Am I so naive as to think that person would be okay with it? Am I so god damn fucking idiotic that I would accept a no for an answer when I know that what I need is not a no but an, okay whatever youre comfortable with? Is it my fault still?
Is it?
I don't know.

I miss Seussical, but i refuse to write about it.

i like seussical, i like the people.

sad its over, happy it happened.

thanks for the memories everyone.

Happy One Hundreth Post.

Thanks to those who read me.