Going home; Stress; Love?; Look who finally looked up

I get to go home today
how cool is that?

Instead of having rehearsal
or a newspaper meeting
or a tutoring session
or work
or ANYTHING

I
I.
I.
I get to to go home.
Have supper with my family.

..& then go back to school because I have a tour I need to go on.
Lovely.

But.
I'm happy.
& hungry.
& tired.

But I'm happy
How lovely. How important.

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Stress is hard.
I know I seem to be dwelling on the subject lately
But stress is so difficult for me to deal with.

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Funny how some people just get you through your day.
Funny how you can love so many people
& still not know what love is.
Funny how giving love is so much harder than accepting it
Funny how much trust it takes to say i love you
to someone when you actually mean it
than it does to scream LOVE YA at your friends as theyre walking away
Cause theyre both love, in a sense
But so different.

Don't say it. I'm not IN love.
I'm realistic.
I'm aware enough of myself and who I am to understand that I am not.
That I haven't been.

& in saying this, I am not saying those who believe they are so in love with their significant others are not. Maybe they are, maybe they aren't.
Maybe it's my lack of trust in others and in myself
Maybe I just don't let myself get so close that I have the oppertunity.
Or maybe it's just that I simply haven't been.
Which is very likely.

Perhaps, a combination of both?
Well, howdie-do.

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Bam
Here we go, here we go
Hear, I go again.

But you aren't listening.
But you weren't looking.
You missed it all

All but the end result.

So thank you for tuning in.

But however you've missed half the plot
so I would appreciate you not passing jugdment today.

Once Upon A Time was about
oh
10 years ago.
So don't give me these fairy tale morals
and expect me to understand

Because You haven't been watching the change
& now here I am
Here I am getting ready to go
& you're standing there stary eyed asking
When did you grow old?
When did you get tall
& learn to walk home alone?
When did you stop asking for a bedtime story?
When did you stop laughing at the snow?

& what can I say besides that it took time.
It did.
It took time and time that you weren't willing to give.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you missed it
Missed some pieces.

I'm sorry you feel left out now.
I'm sorry you feel ignored.
I'm sorry you feel like I've left