Radical Man

Tonight

My body and my mind are rebelling against me.
I feel so tired.
But I feel such a need to be active.
Tonight I want to cut my hair short again.
Really short.
Short. Non-existent.

I have this obsession with changing myself lately.
I want to re-invent

If I had more money, I'd go for it.
I plan on, once I'm 18, getting my nose pierced.
And my belly button.
Getting two tattoos,

and bleaching chunks of my hair.

I want to wear more of my daring clothing,

the stuff i do my photo shoots in.

I want to paint my nails red.

I want to draw a murel on my closet wall.

I want to feel so free tonight.
I want to not think about the future

and the recent past.
I want to think about

WHAT DO I WANT?

What do I want?
How often do you ask that question,

with the intentions to seriously listen to yourself,

and deal and cater to what you learn?
How often do you say,

"Gee I wish I could..."
"Gee, I would really like to..."
"If only I was..."
Well, why not?
What's holding us back?
What's holding me back tonight?
Nothing. That's what.
I think I'll go do something radical.

WHAT DO YOU WANT?
&,
WHY NOT GET IT?