Two words; Naive

Somedays it's easier to be hurt by you

and be angry at you,

than it is to listen and to comfort.
Than it is to be there and know,
I can't do anything.
(I'm sorry.)

I've never been drunk.
Because I've never drank.
Never smoked, anything.
Never been high off pills.
I don't go to partys,

I'm a virgin.
I don't go to church.
I don't eat breakfast.
I used to have an eating disorder.
I used to be so depressed, and in a scary place.
I used to want to do all those things;
Drink, smoke, get high, party, have sex, find god (or give him the middle finger), and eat more.
I don't know why I just... didn't.
(except for eating more. I'm healthier now)
& I'm sure if I thought about it, I'd think of so many more things that I could add to that list of thing's I've never done.
I feel young and inexperianced today.
I feel like I know nothing about the world,

and, that I'm naive.
Didn't you once warn me about that?
"Don't be naive, ______-"
Well,

I can look at this list and say,

these aren't things I want to be experianced with,

and that's true,

but somehow I can't help feeling like I haven't

really lived yet.

It's a cold one again kiddos. Minus 37

Bundle up! Stay warm!
And if you go skating,

hold someone's hand for warmth.

Book to read:
The Edible Women
By Margaret Atwood