I'm still alive (A poetry sort of day)

& It'll be fine,
lover of mine,
It'll be just fine.
I'll just hold you
rub your back,
pretty as you please,
until you're alright.
Then I'll take my leave.

I had a dream I was flying
& I could clearly see
everything I've wanted

so close at hand
oh, it's alright
flying.

i can't think of things

to write down

my fingertips are moving faster

than this mind of mine.
I'd never had someone hold my hand like-

Well I bet you say that to all the girls

I can sing that song so well
I can hold your hand right back

But I won't.
Because you aren't safe.
Because you aren't safe from me
(Because we matter to each other)

Help me kill the

fear

of the emptiness I hide
Stay by my side
Help me fill up

these spaces.
If I should fall,
then make sure
I learn how to hit
ground well.
Pride's all I have,
& now that he left it
bruised,
It's more precious than ever.
Touch me,

but lightly.
& don't let your hands

stray a breath.
I can't take more of that kind of pain.

Excitement bubble up inside me,
It's like I drank a bottle of champagne,
as your kiss make me close my eyes
to the harsh sights and sounds the world is offering tonight.
As your hand touches mine

all the world slants and shifts

and all the words on the tip of my tripping tongue
stall
strangle

shiver
& fade into
U S E L E S S N E S S

nothing in the world compares
to the feelings of confusion
and surprised joy

that you give me.
Every time I see those lips,

for the rest of my life,
I'll taste you-
Coffee, and minty gum,

and your own special taste, like spicy chocolate.
Tonight I'll borrow your arms & chest
as a pillow and blanket.
& I'll listen to that heartbeat of yours,

that tell me,

I'm still alive