at least
at least
at least i said it.
at least i opened my mouth and my heart
and i let you know.
that i love you
from the bottom of my heart.
from the bottom of my person.
you don't love me.
i know that.
i wish i didnt.
i wish you did.
i wish we had been back in that room with your hand touching me and our faces connected and i didnt pull away and i didnt have to say it right then because in those moments we could have been magic but now
now?
at least you know.
at least i said it.
but i still feel
awful

so let's find a bar
so dark
we forget who we are
and all the scars from the nevers and maybes
die
lets go out tonight.

 its better than anything
to just be helpless
to just give it all up
and collapse completely
as you collapse on top of me.
ive never felt so raw
and ive never felt so real.
i feel
how funny,
i feel naked.
and thats ok.
its fine to be vulnerable sometimes.
im youre dirty little secret
and you are very little more to me
than a hot shower.
and we're ok with that.

street lights
stormy nights
your body next to mine
all i need is to feel your heat
all i need is one more beat
and you've got me falling over
falling over the edge.